Unexplained Disappearance

As an undergrad, my roommate and I always had a little plan – if one of us wouldn’t be home by a certain time in the evening, we would call or email or text the other, just to let the other know that everything was fine. It was always reassuring to know that someone was always aware of my whereabouts and that if something happened to me, someone would know to be concerned. Having a blog with wonderfully loyal readers is much the same way – I can’t fall off the radar for too long without receiving emails, comments, Twitter messages, and (for those of you who have figured out my real identity) Facebook messages questioning where I have gone over the past 2 weeks. It’s nice to know that when you fall off the internets, people notice that too.

In all honestly, I just needed a break from life. I’ve been dealing with a really rather ugly situation over here – something that I’m not going to get into detail on the blog, because I’m not anonymous enough, and I don’t want it to come back and bite me in the tush someday. But, suffice to say, it’s left me questioning everything, trusting no one, and downright miserable. For those of you who did realize that something was wrong and contacted me regarding the situation, your concern and advice has been appreciated more than I could possibly put into words. At this point, I’ve just had to accept that there is honestly nothing I can do, the situation is out of my hands, shit happens, and that’s that. I can’t change the situation anymore, but I can vow to never do to someone else what has been done to me, and thus feel like I am making a difference that way.

And so, knowing that I couldn’t improve the situation, I just gave myself time to be angry. I gave myself two weeks to be angry and throw myself a pity party, and after two weeks, then it was time to clean up my act and move on with life. I’ve worked too hard and put too many years into this to let my anger or disappointment in others get the best of me.

I took a break from blogging, and for about a week in there, reading blogs altogether. I tried to catch up, but faced with over 1500 unread items in my Google Reader, I just gave up, and clicked the “Mark All As Read.” If I missed anything huge of yours, I do truly apologize – I feel like I’ve deserted friends. I’ve tried to be better this past week, but the week before was kind of a lost cause. I had too many other things with which to deal, and the whole blogosphere just seemed so extremely… insignificant all of a sudden, and I just needed to take a break and think about the best way to deal with my own situation. So, a break I took, but after a two week hiatus, here I am.